gone

the riverbeds bled 
as she said
she would see me around
i knew the sound was about to get me down
as I heard it forcing 
my soul to drown
in torrents and currents
abundantly sardonic
for most of the duration
of our seperation

every time I open my mouth
I create mounds of decadent sounds
that work against me
I can’t help me
I try to explain myself
but my emotions can’t contain themselves

I try and i try but I’ll never succeed
to plead my case
your face will never grace
my presence again

The tears will forever stain my pillow

I want to let go, but I know
my heart is too deep
to let go

I still weep at our demise
I cry at the lies i told
when I held you beside me

I still love you
I love you so much
I miss you
I miss you so much

but

I’ve told you a few times now
and it just ended up with you blocking me now

what can I do?

I still feel very deeply for you